Loner

Hi. If you want to know how does it feels like to be a loner, you can ask me. In my previous school, there were approximately 1000 students. Maybe more. To be honest, I feel like I have never fit in with any of the 1K students. Why? I'm always alone. I eat with different people everyday, and I'm not in the same club as any of my friends. I think in form 1, I found myself to be the only only form 1 that is active in softball. Anyway, what brought me here today is group pictures. In my previous school, I was never in any group photos unless it is some huge occasion. For example, I represent the school or something. Other than that, I'm invisible. I was rarely invited to any gathering or open houses too. Maybe that's why I am not so sociable. But, I like it that way.

Recently, I talked to my old friend. She said I'm very sociable IN SCHOOL. Well, I agree. I talk to everyone and listen to everyone. But to be true. There is no one there to listen to me. Listen to my problems. That's why I've created a blog. To pour everything out. I write poems so that I can express myself. And I write songs. So, that I can laugh at myself. Telling myself that is okay. And it is fine.

Everytime I see photos of my old friends, I feel sad. Cause I never get the opportunity to do so. I feel like I have never really been their true or even close friends. Why? Bacause they didnt even bother to keep a picture of me as memory when I have tonnes of their pictures. It kills me inside cause I feel like I am not preciated for some reason. But well, I guess it is just how it meant to be. I am meant to be left out and forgotten. I am meant to be ignored. And I am meant to be invisible.

But then, Alhamdulillah. Now, in my new school, I dont feel left out that much. Even if I walk alone, I know there will be one or two person who wish that she could be there accompanying me. And everytime I am around, they never forget to invite me to join in the group photos they take. I am very greatful. Or however we spell it. Well, ciao! :)

Wardrobe design

You might know this. But if you don't, I'm moving. My house of course. Not school. Well, my dad asked me how I want my wardrobe to look like. So, I've decided to design my own.

Okay. This is the first design. The left one is suppose to be for Jubah or dresses. And the two on top that have those 'glass' symbol, it was suppose to be sliding. But dad said sliding needs at least 3 doors or shelves. If you don't understand that, well, I don't know how to explain. Okay move on to the second design!!

so, this second design, I added another door or shelf. So, there are 3 doors in total.. Which means.. SLIDING DOOR!! But then.. It'll be hard to take whatever I put in the middle. So, I've decided to draw another one.

This 3rd design. I drew it this afternoon. I've decided that it'll be easier and CHEAPER if I just do 2 huge sliding door instead of like half sliding and all.. So, this is how my wardrobe will look like. Insyallah.. And guess what? The engineer a.k.a my dad, approves this design!! So, the 2 HUGE sliding doors, it'll cover obviously everything. And it'll be a full length mirror. So, it'll be awesome I guess. Insyallah. :) BYE!! :D

Diy's open house.

On 15th September, I went to an open house.. Which is Diyana's. I kinda got lost. And I tried to call her. But then, the number wasn't her number. So, there's this creepy girl who picked up the phone.The convo went something like this.

"Hello? Di, how do I get to your house?"
"who is this?"
"Shafieza."
"which Shafieza??"
"Adni Shafieza."
"Owh."
"Where is your house?"
Dad: You're not suppose to say that! It's rude.
Me: *whispers* It's not her. She doesn't speak like this.
"I'm sorry. But nevermind" *hangs up*

It was super creepy. Anyway, then I called her REAL number. And she told me the direction.. :) Once I arrive, it was kind of awkward cause I could't find Diyana. But then she came out to rescue me!! She was wearing pink! And so was I? Well, it was red. Then talk talk talk. Eat eat eat. Prayed Asar with Tuba, then eat more and went upstairs. That's when we took the picture above! Too bad Li and Nadiah wasn't in the picture.

Anyway, later all of us went down stairs and hang out somewhere that have swing. A few minutes later, Bat came. She was in this cute white dress! Haha.. :D We talked and laughed at Tuba because she took like a MILLION pictures with the Thai students. Well, just Dalily actually. And when I was just about to go home, Aliya came. Haha.. I just said Hi to her and went home. Well, that's it I guess. Bye! :)

David Archuleta

HELLO!!! So, I just came back from Pavilion or however we spell it.. And I bought myself a present! Too bad the songs that I like isn't in there.. Like forevermore and Andito Ako.

This is the cover of the Album.. He's so cute! :D

I like the CD, the colour is pretty cool.. And OMG!! He is just so cute! Haha.. Sorry for my weird obsession.. But he is just too cute! :3

Here are the songs!! No. 1,2 and 8 are covers. I gotta say that song No. 3 is my favourite; Everybody hurts.