Never have I ever thought I'll fall this hard again. Never have I ever thought I'll break this much. But that is just life. It is unexpected and full of mysteries.
He was charming, caring and all I could ever ask for. He looked out for me and always wanting to make me officially his. It was I that broke him cause I was heartbroken. He started changing and prioritized others. Not that it matter cause I still can talk to him during the day when the change occurred. Except for the fact that he was always moody and never available at night to talk to. If you realize my tenses, YES. It's past tense and it's all in the past.
Right now, we are part time strangers. Only talk when we have to and we are barely even friends. We don't look at each other nor do we talk about absolute nonsense anymore. We just talk about the important things and that "conversation" barely lasted 5 minutes and it's literally once in a fortnight. But it seems to me that he can casually talk to other girls and talk about irrelevant things to them.
Just when I was about to lose hope, that's when he walk up to me and acted as if nothing ever happened. It just break me even more. And he can't even see that I'm not okay when others can. Yes, it was calming to be able to see him smile but with my current situation, it hurts. He was able to smile when I'm obviously suffering. He was able to talk with random girls when I show that I'm miserable. Still thinking if I should stay or walk off because it just hurt too much. As much as I love him, it'll hurt less if I let go. But then again, this is my part of the story. We don't know his.
